Fired Up & Staying Lit
Happy Friday, lovely people!
I pray you're having a wonderful time while staying safe & drinking your water! It's been a while since I've written a blog post (3 years), and it's been on my heart to start again. To be completely honest I didn't know where to start, or if I'd be too transparent in my writings to you. However, I know that what I've learned along the way can bless someone else on their journey, so I'm going to do my best to share my biggest lessons without charging you for it. (Yay for freebies!)
Have you ever experienced rejection so bad that it made you feel like a failure? I sure have, and let me tell you, it was truly one of the best things that happened to me. You see today, Aug. 14th, 2020 is my FIRST-year anniversary of being a full-time entreprenuer. That's right! I've been self-employed for an entire year and I can't believe it. I cannot believe I'm here after getting fired on this day a year ago.
Yes, you read that correctly- I was terminated from my last job a year ago via phone after being employed for just a few weeks. I remember being told by my superior that she spoke to the providers and told them that she didn't believe I was a good fit. There was so much joy in her voice. What she doesn't know is that I'm aware of my firing being her way of retaliating against corporate. I was collateral damage because of someone else's ego. As someone who really intentional about achieving goals, I was, as the new kids say, SHOOK AF. Getting fired over the phone is one thing, but getting fired over the phone while holding their sleeping 7-month while you're battling a stomach virus was another. Add in the fact that I'd only been there for a little over a month - double whammy. Call me melodramatic, but my feelings were valid.
I remember sitting down with my son in my arms after hanging up the phone. I cried for about 5 minutes on the phone with my strong friend for sound wisdom and I said, "I can't believe I just got fired. How am I going to provide for my son? I'm literally speechless. What did I do wrong?!" They quickly reminded me that I was never supposed to go back to work after giving birth earlier that year. I was supposed to use what God gave me, ElonWick, and take care of my child. That was the God-honest truth I needed to hear. (Thank you, C. Love you!)
Even after that conversation, I still felt like a complete failure at managing my life. I also felt like that moment of rejection was the moment I knew something had to give. So I gave myself all of 15 minutes to process my feelings and got to thinking.That was a year ago, and even though I knew I had it in me to go full-time, I doubted myself. I had a baby, bills, and a business. I had to do something & something fast. Over the next few months, I applied to well over 100-200 jobs with no callbacks. Again, rejection sucks and I tend to take it to heart. Why couldn't I succeed in something I knew I was good at? Well, you're not always going to win a game just because you're good at playing. I was losing big time. Then one day after a market, I sat down and wrote a list of personal and professional goals that I wanted to accomplish. Since that day, I've been more intentional on how I run my business, mother my son, spend my time, and most importantly, prayed more consistently than I've ever have, I recite my two favorite verses, Psalm 37:4 and Proverbs 3:5 to remind myself that everything happened because I asked for one thing- provision to provide.
That was a year ago, and I'm so grateful for that moment. Getting fired woke up the fire in me, and I'm still lit!! I needed that rejection to see the big picture. They did me a favor (if you're reading this, thank you).
God's grace is truly sufficient and it shows. Now, I'm so blessed to have consistent sales, stockists, and I'm totally winning at being a mom. I've chosen to share my personal and entrepreneurial moments with you to say, "YOU GOT THIS!" and, "DON'T LET SOCIAL MEDIA FOOL YOU. WE'RE ALL TRYING TO MAKE IT WORK AND MAKE IT LOOK GOOD FOR YOU!
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this post. I pray it encourages someone, and if you don't mind, leave your thoughts below in the comment section. Share this with a friend on social media and don't forget to tag ElonWick Candle Co so I can see & love them all!
Love you deep